How is it possible that I am able to tolerate even one moment without you

One day

One week?

How am I still moving?

Why has this been so easy

Go to work, eat your food

But not too much

Because you still care

What kind of person mother monster are you

That you can still smile

I can’t imaging what you are going through

How are you still standing?

Wow, you look great. How can you look great?

You must be heartless to be able to put on that outfit and walk out that door

To look so good, to act so good,

when you should be broken. I would have been broken.

How do you get out of bed? I couldn’t do it.

You must not have loved her like I love them.

You worked and divorced. You already didn’t love like me

Because I don’t know how you do it. I couldn’t. It would break me

But you are still standing, still smiling and making plans

You must love less than me, care less than me, mother less than me.

Because that is my worst nightmare. You are my worst nightmare

That I would do it too.